Then, today's paper (ΠΈ Π²ΠΎΡ, ΡΠ΅Π³ΠΎΠ΄Π½ΡΡΠ½ΡΡ Π³Π°Π·Π΅ΡΠ°).
Of course I knew it was here (ΠΊΠΎΠ½Π΅ΡΠ½ΠΎ, Ρ Π·Π½Π°Π», ΡΡΠΎ ΠΎΠ½Π° /ΡΠΆΠ΅/ Π·Π΄Π΅ΡΡ). I knew it yesterday morning (Ρ Π·Π½Π°Π» ΡΡΠΎ Π΅ΡΠ΅ Π²ΡΠ΅ΡΠ° ΡΡΡΠΎΠΌ) when I got up and heard the mysterious sound of snowmelt running down the gutters (ΠΊΠΎΠ³Π΄Π° Ρ Π²ΡΡΠ°Π» ΠΈ ΡΡΠ»ΡΡΠ°Π» /ΡΡΠΎΡ/ ΡΠ°ΠΈΠ½ΡΡΠ²Π΅Π½Π½ΡΠΉ Π·Π²ΡΠΊ/ΡΡΠΌ ΡΠ°Π»ΠΎΠΉ Π²ΠΎΠ΄Ρ, Π±Π΅Π³ΡΡΠ΅ΠΉ ΠΏΠΎ Π²ΠΎΠ΄ΠΎΡΡΠΎΠΊΠ°ΠΌ; snowmelt β ΡΠ½Π΅Π³ΠΎΡΠ°ΡΠ½ΠΈΠ΅; ΡΠ°ΡΡΠ°ΡΠ²ΡΠΈΠΉ ΡΠ½Π΅Π³; to melt β ΡΠ°ΡΡΡ), and smelled the salt tang of the ocean from our front porch (ΠΈ ΠΏΠΎΡΡΡΠ» ΠΎΡΡΡΡΠΉ ΡΠΎΠ»Π΅Π½ΡΠΉ Π·Π°ΠΏΠ°Ρ ΠΎΠΊΠ΅Π°Π½Π° Ρ ΠΊΡΡΠ»ΡΡΠ°; tang β ΡΠ΅Π·ΠΊΠΈΠΉ Π²ΠΊΡΡ, ΠΎΡΡΡΠΈΠΌΡΠΉ ΠΏΡΠΈΠ²ΠΊΡΡ; ΠΎΡΡΡΡΠΉ Π·Π°ΠΏΠ°Ρ ), nine miles from the nearest beach (/Ρ ΠΎΡΡ ΠΌΡ ΠΆΠΈΠ»ΠΈ/ Π² Π΄Π΅Π²ΡΡΠΈ ΠΌΠΈΠ»ΡΡ ΠΎΡ Π±Π»ΠΈΠΆΠ°ΠΉΡΠ΅Π³ΠΎ Π±Π΅ΡΠ΅Π³Π°). I knew strawberry spring had come again (Ρ Π·Π½Π°Π», ΡΡΠΎ Π·Π΅ΠΌΠ»ΡΠ½ΠΈΡΠ½Π°Ρ Π²Π΅ΡΠ½Π° Π½Π°ΡΡΡΠΏΠΈΠ»Π° Π²Π½ΠΎΠ²Ρ) when I started home from work last night (ΠΊΠΎΠ³Π΄Π° Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠ΅Ρ Π°Π» Π΄ΠΎΠΌΠΎΠΉ Ρ ΡΠ°Π±ΠΎΡΡ ΠΏΡΠΎΡΠ»ΡΠΌ Π²Π΅ΡΠ΅ΡΠΎΠΌ) and had to turn on my headlights against the mist (ΠΈ ΠΌΠ½Π΅ ΠΏΡΠΈΡΠ»ΠΎΡΡ Π²ΠΊΠ»ΡΡΠΈΡΡ ΡΠ°ΡΡ ΠΈΠ·-Π·Π° ΡΡΠΌΠ°Π½Π°) that was already beginning to creep out of the fields and hollows (ΠΊΠΎΡΠΎΡΡΠΉ ΡΠΆΠ΅ Π½Π°ΡΠΈΠ½Π°Π» Π²ΡΠΏΠΎΠ»Π·Π°ΡΡ Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠ»Π΅ΠΉ ΠΈ Π½ΠΈΠ·ΠΈΠ½; hollow β ΠΏΠΎΠ»ΠΎΡΡΡ; Π²ΠΏΠ°Π΄ΠΈΠ½Π°, ΡΠΌΠ°; Π½ΠΈΠ·ΠΈΠ½Π°, Π»ΠΎΠΆΠ±ΠΈΠ½Π°), blurring the lines of the buildings (ΡΠ°Π·ΠΌΡΠ²Π°Ρ ΠΎΡΠ΅ΡΡΠ°Π½ΠΈΡ Π·Π΄Π°Π½ΠΈΠΉ) and putting fairy haloes around the street lamps (ΠΈ ΠΎΠΊΡΡΠΆΠ°Ρ ΡΠ»ΠΈΡΠ½ΡΠ΅ ΡΠΎΠ½Π°ΡΠΈ Π²ΠΎΠ»ΡΠ΅Π±Π½ΡΠΌ ΠΎΡΠ΅ΠΎΠ»ΠΎΠΌ; to put β ΠΊΠ»Π°ΡΡΡ; to put around β Π½Π°ΠΊΠ»Π°Π΄ΡΠ²Π°ΡΡ Π²ΠΎΠΊΡΡΠ³ ΡΠ΅Π³ΠΎ-Π»ΠΈΠ±ΠΎ, ΠΎΠΊΡΡΠΆΠ°ΡΡ ΡΠ΅ΠΌ-Π»ΠΈΠ±ΠΎ; fairy β ΡΠ΅Ρ; Π²ΠΎΠ»ΡΠ΅Π±Π½ΠΈΡΠ°; ΡΠ»ΡΡ; Π²ΠΎΠ»ΡΠ΅Π±Π½ΡΠΉ, ΡΠΊΠ°Π·ΠΎΡΠ½ΡΠΉ; halo β ΠΎΡΠ΅ΠΎΠ», ΡΠΈΡΠ½ΠΈΠ΅).
child [CaIld], field [fJld], mysterious [mI'stIqrIqs]
That was the year I graduated, and the next year was the year I married. A good job in a local publishing house. In 1971 we had a child, and now he's almost school age. A fine and questing boy with my eyes and her mouth.
Then, today's paper.
Of course I knew it was here. I knew it yesterday morning when I got up and heard the mysterious sound of snowmelt running down the gutters, and smelled the salt tang of the ocean from our front porch, nine miles from the nearest beach. I knew strawberry spring had come again when I started home from work last night and had to turn on my headlights against the mist that was already beginning to creep out of the fields and hollows, blurring the lines of the buildings and putting fairy haloes around the street lamps.
This morning's paper says a girl was killed on the New Sharon campus near the Civil War cannons (ΡΠ΅Π³ΠΎΠ΄Π½ΡΡΠ½ΡΡ ΡΡΡΠ΅Π½Π½ΡΡ Π³Π°Π·Π΅ΡΠ° ΡΠΎΠΎΠ±ΡΠ°Π΅Ρ, ΡΡΠΎ Π² ΠΊΠ°ΠΌΠΏΡΡΠ΅ ΠΡΡ-Π¨ΡΡΠΎΠ½Π° Π½Π΅ΠΏΠΎΠ΄Π°Π»Π΅ΠΊΡ ΠΎΡ ΠΏΡΡΠ΅ΠΊ Π²ΡΠ΅ΠΌΠ΅Π½ ΠΡΠ°ΠΆΠ΄Π°Π½ΡΠΊΠΎΠΉ Π²ΠΎΠΉΠ½Ρ Π±ΡΠ»Π° ΡΠ±ΠΈΡΠ° Π΄Π΅Π²ΡΡΠΊΠ°). She was killed last night (ΠΎΠ½Π° Π±ΡΠ»Π° ΡΠ±ΠΈΡΠ° ΠΏΡΠΎΡΠ»ΠΎΠΉ Π½ΠΎΡΡΡ) and found in a melting snowbank (ΠΈ Π½Π°ΠΉΠ΄Π΅Π½Π° Π² ΠΏΠΎΠ΄ΡΠ°ΡΠ²ΡΠ΅ΠΌ ΡΠ½Π΅ΠΆΠ½ΠΎΠΌ ΡΡΠ³ΡΠΎΠ±Π΅). She was not all there (ΠΎΠ½Π° Π½Π΅ Π²ΡΡ Π±ΡΠ»Π° ΡΠ°ΠΌ = Π½ΠΎ Π½Π°ΡΠ»ΠΈ Π΅Π΅ Π½Π΅ ΡΠ΅Π»ΠΈΠΊΠΎΠΌ).
My wife is upset (ΠΌΠΎΡ ΠΆΠ΅Π½Π° ΡΠ°ΡΡΡΡΠΎΠ΅Π½Π°). She wants to know where I was last night (ΠΎΠ½Π° Ρ ΠΎΡΠ΅Ρ Π·Π½Π°ΡΡ, Π³Π΄Π΅ Ρ Π±ΡΠ» ΠΏΡΠΎΡΠ»ΡΠΌ Π²Π΅ΡΠ΅ΡΠΎΠΌ). I can't tell her because I don't remember (Ρ Π½Π΅ ΠΌΠΎΠ³Ρ Π΅ΠΉ ΡΠΊΠ°Π·Π°ΡΡ, ΠΏΠΎΡΠΎΠΌΡ ΡΡΠΎ Π½Π΅ ΠΏΠΎΠΌΠ½Ρ). I remember starting home from work (Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠΌΠ½Ρ, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ Π²ΡΠ΅Ρ Π°Π» Ρ ΡΠ°Π±ΠΎΡΡ Π΄ΠΎΠΌΠΎΠΉ), and I remember putting my headlights on to search my way through the lovely creeping fog (ΠΈ Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠΌΠ½Ρ, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ Π²ΠΊΠ»ΡΡΠΈΠ» ΡΠ°ΡΡ, ΡΡΠΎΠ±Ρ Π½Π°ΠΉΡΠΈ ΠΏΡΡΡ/Π΄ΠΎΡΠΎΠ³Ρ ΡΠΊΠ²ΠΎΠ·Ρ ΠΏΡΠ΅ΠΊΡΠ°ΡΠ½ΡΠΉ/ΡΡΠ΄Π΅ΡΠ½ΡΠΉ ΡΡΠ΅Π»ΡΡΠΈΠΉΡΡ ΡΡΠΌΠ°Π½), but that's all I remember (Π½ΠΎ ΡΡΠΎ Π²ΡΠ΅, ΡΡΠΎ Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠΌΠ½Ρ).
I've been thinking about that foggy night (Ρ Π΄ΡΠΌΠ°Ρ ΠΎ ΡΠΎΠΉ ΡΡΠΌΠ°Π½Π½ΠΎΠΉ Π½ΠΎΡΠΈ) when I had a headache (ΠΊΠΎΠ³Π΄Π° ΠΎΠ½ Ρ ΠΌΠ΅Π½Ρ Π±ΠΎΠ»Π΅Π»Π° Π³ΠΎΠ»ΠΎΠ²Π°) and walked for air (ΠΈ Ρ Π²ΡΡΠ΅Π» ΠΏΠΎΠ΄ΡΡΠ°ΡΡ ΡΠ²Π΅ΠΆΠΈΠΌ Π²ΠΎΠ·Π΄ΡΡ ΠΎΠΌ) and passed all the lovely shadows without shape or substance (ΠΈ ΠΏΡΠΎΡ ΠΎΠ΄ΠΈΠ» ΠΌΠΈΠΌΠΎ ΠΏΡΠΈΡΡΠ³Π°ΡΠ΅Π»ΡΠ½ΡΡ ΡΠ΅Π½Π΅ΠΉ Π±Π΅Π· ΡΠΎΡΠΌΡ ΠΈ ΡΠΎΠ΄Π΅ΡΠΆΠ°Π½ΠΈΡ = Π±Π΅ΡΡΠΎΡΠΌΠ΅Π½Π½ΡΡ , Π±Π΅Π·Π»ΠΈΠΊΠΈΡ ΡΠ΅Π½Π΅ΠΉ). And I've been thinking about the trunk of my car (ΠΈ Ρ Π΄ΡΠΌΠ°Ρ ΠΎ Π±Π°Π³Π°ΠΆΠ½ΠΈΠΊΠ΅ ΠΌΠΎΠ΅ΠΉ ΠΌΠ°ΡΠΈΠ½Ρ) β such an ugly word, trunk (ΠΊΠ°ΠΊΠΎΠ΅ ΠΌΠ΅ΡΠ·ΠΊΠΎΠ΅/ΡΠΆΠ°ΡΠ½ΠΎΠ΅ ΡΠ»ΠΎΠ²ΠΎ: βΠ±Π°Π³Π°ΠΆΠ½ΠΈΠΊβ; trunk β ΡΡΠ²ΠΎΠ» /Π΄Π΅ΡΠ΅Π²Π°/; ΡΡΠ»ΠΎΠ²ΠΈΡΠ΅, ΡΠ΅Π»ΠΎ; ΡΠ΅ΠΌΠΎΠ΄Π°Π½; Π±Π°Π³Π°ΠΆΠ½ΠΈΠΊ) β and wondering why in the world I should be afraid to open it (ΠΈ Π·Π°Π΄Π°ΡΡΡ Π²ΠΎΠΏΡΠΎΡΠΎΠΌ, ΠΎΡΡΠ΅Π³ΠΎ ΡΡΠΎ Ρ Π²Π΄ΡΡΠ³ Π±ΠΎΡΡΡ Π΅Π³ΠΎ ΠΎΡΡΡΡΡ: Β«ΠΏΠΎΡΠ΅ΠΌΡ, Π² ΠΊΠΎΠ½ΡΠ΅ ΠΊΠΎΠ½ΡΠΎΠ², Ρ Π΄ΠΎΠ»ΠΆΠ΅Π½ Π±ΠΎΡΡΡΡΡ Π΅Π³ΠΎ ΠΎΡΠΊΡΡΡΡΒ»; in the world β ΠΎΡΠ΅Π½Ρ, ΡΠΎΠ²Π΅ΡΡΠ΅Π½Π½ΠΎ, Π² ΠΊΠΎΠ½ΡΠ΅ ΠΊΠΎΠ½ΡΠΎΠ², /ΡΠ»ΡΠΆΠΈΡ Π΄Π»Ρ ΡΡΠΈΠ»Π΅Π½ΠΈΡ/).
I can hear my wife as I write this, in the next room, crying (Ρ ΠΏΠΈΡΡ ΡΡΠΎ ΠΈ ΡΠ»ΡΡΡ, ΠΊΠ°ΠΊ ΠΌΠΎΡ ΠΆΠ΅Π½Π° ΠΏΠ»Π°ΡΠ΅Ρ Π² ΡΠΎΡΠ΅Π΄Π½Π΅ΠΉ ΠΊΠΎΠΌΠ½Π°ΡΠ΅). She thinks I was with another woman last night (ΠΎΠ½Π° Π΄ΡΠΌΠ°Π΅Ρ, ΡΡΠΎ ΠΏΡΠΎΡΠ»ΠΎΠΉ Π½ΠΎΡΡΡ Ρ Π±ΡΠ» Ρ Π΄ΡΡΠ³ΠΎΠΉ ΠΆΠ΅Π½ΡΠΈΠ½ΠΎΠΉ).
And oh dear God, I think so too (ΠΈ, ΠΎ ΠΠΎΡΠΏΠΎΠ΄ΠΈ, Ρ Π΄ΡΠΌΠ°Ρ ΡΠ°ΠΊ ΠΆΠ΅ = ΠΎΠΏΠ°ΡΠ°ΡΡΡ ΡΠΎΠ³ΠΎ ΠΆΠ΅).
word [wq:d], should [SVd], woman ['wVmqn]
This morning's paper says a girl was killed on the New Sharon campus near the Civil War cannons. She was killed last night and found in a melting snowbank. She was not all there.
My wife is upset. She wants to know where I was last night. I can't tell her because I don't remember. I remember starting home from work, and I remember putting my headlights on to search my way through the lovely creeping fog, but that's all I remember.
I've been thinking about that foggy night when I had a headache and walked for air and passed all the lovely shadows without shape or substance. And I've been thinking about the trunk of my car β such an ugly word, trunk β and wondering why in the world I should be afraid to open it.
I can hear my wife as I write this, in the next room, crying. She thinks I was with another woman last night.
And oh dear God, I think so too.
[1] amalar (ΠΈΡΠΏ.) β ΠΏΡΠΈΡΠΈΠ½ΡΡΡ Π·Π»ΠΎ, Π²ΡΠ΅Π΄ΠΈΡΡ
[2] L.L. Bean β "Π.Π. ΠΠΈΠ½". ΠΠΎΠΌΠΏΠ°Π½ΠΈΡ ΠΏΠΎ ΠΏΡΠΎΠΈΠ·Π²ΠΎΠ΄ΡΡΠ²Ρ ΠΏΠΎΠ²ΡΠ΅Π΄Π½Π΅Π²Π½ΠΎΠΉ ΠΈ ΡΠΏΠΎΡΡΠΈΠ²Π½ΠΎΠΉ ΠΌΡΠΆΡΠΊΠΎΠΉ ΠΈ ΠΆΠ΅Π½ΡΠΊΠΎΠΉ ΠΎΠ΄Π΅ΠΆΠ΄Ρ, ΡΠΏΠΎΡΡΠΈΠ²Π½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ ΠΈ ΠΏΠΎΡ ΠΎΠ΄Π½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ ΠΈΠ½Π²Π΅Π½ΡΠ°ΡΡ. Π Π°ΡΠΏΡΠΎΡΡΡΠ°Π½ΡΠ΅Ρ ΡΠ²ΠΎΡ ΠΏΡΠΎΠ΄ΡΠΊΡΠΈΡ ΠΏΠΎ ΠΊΠ°ΡΠ°Π»ΠΎΠ³Π°ΠΌ.